KL with Suf~~~~ (16th ~ 19th Sep 2017)

All thanks to the KL trip, I got a new nickname from Suf!!!!!

My last “pet name” from him was “fish soup” in 2015 wtf.. all because I recommended a tasteless fish soup under my block.

We’ve travelled together in the past year

• Batam- with Zul Ahmad & his friend
• Penang - with Mahmood
• JB - with D’reverie and One Knight Stand friends

But yeah, never just us :D so I was looking forward!
Will we fight? Hurhurhur, let’s find out.

Suf’s uncle(same age as me) drove us out for supper one day :’) and it was nice to meet Suf’s relative. I don’t mind going to KL more since Suf has relatives there.

HAH and I just found out that the clothes/shoes are cheap (*_*) much cheaper to travel/stay in KL than Bangkok man?! Why is it not popular as a shopping haven for us Singaporeans?! Plus no communication gap and the food is good?!


On a side note, I'm kinda relieved to be leaving my current job. Been holding out since the first day I started (23rd Jan).. a freaking 8 months man. Guess it opened my eyes to what bad management means. I would have liked to stay and iron things out if only I wasn't in such a powerless position. LOL and I don't get paid enough to care. It's sickening how the oijsans are paid more (read: Rolex watch) yet they don't really produce results. Mehhhh.

Please please please let me make friends at my new job! More locals pls....

Dream To Achieve

Time is not a factor when it comes to these kind of things. I keep trying to tell myself that. It doesn’t matter whether I’m getting old, it matters that I reach my goal.

Easy to say. I count the years as they pass. With each passing birthday, my heart sinks more.  The dream is always hard to reach. I dreamt about it ever since I was 8, but it was only until I turned 20 that I resolved to do something about it. I’m 23 now.

I’ve already turned older than my cousin that passed away 5 years back. Time is ever so precious. Someone dies in the news everyday, and it seems growing old is something that people take for granted. Granted, it requires no conscious effort to stay alive for most.

I digress. A dream is something fragile. It is easy to give up in the blink of an eye, in the face of failure, and negativity from others or yourself. Too easy.

Let's give it a leap of faith again. JIAMIN DON'T GIVE UP

Unwavering Love

Anyone out there that's an idiot like me who pushes away genuine love?

I am that bitch girl that pushes people away and doesn't communicate.

And this time I'm doing it to someone that's so dear and doesn't deserve it at all.. It sucks to be mean to him.

How do I know he is worth it?

Based on suf. No need for second guesses. He is.

He cooks for you.

No, he won't take you out for extravagant dinners but he also won't be lazy about feeding both of you.

He never gives up.

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Even when I drive him up the wall.. expecting him to just give in and throw it all away, he says the unexpected?! Is he crazy? :o

I am really out of luck to have met him. Even after a year of me finding another guy and us not talking, and when I finally decide to let it go and go all out for him, he is still there.

How does someone come to a conclusion like that?


I really test him sometimes and am ALMOST damn sure that he'll say I give up but the response is always "I still want to ah. Up to you whether you want to give up" (._. ) suf if only all guys were like you.. Auto feels bad.

Thanks for existing. I will work hard to make it possible to marry you and save up for house!!!!

MY DEC 2013 BALI TRIP

I'm finally going to blog about my Bali trip last year. It's the first trip I ever planned, and single-handedly too. I got so stressed out about exams I desperately wanted an escape and to feel the accomplishment of planning a trip. At least that would make me feel useful. Grades seem to be everything, or so they say.

Alright! Only had under a week to plan in between studying for my papers, it was a stressful de-stress session, cause I'm stressed planning the 3d2n trip but actually enjoying it. HAH, contradictions.

This was a trip for two. My bf and I split the whatever money we pooled into this evenly.

2 important things:

Flight

Having no prior experience to booking flights, I just googled the few budget carriers in Singapore I knew: AirAsia, Tiger Airways, JetStar.. I picked AirAsia in the end cause there was a promo going on.

I opted for no check-in luggage and meal options but chose assigned seats... even though I really didn't want to fork the $3 per seat for it :( it seemed like they just wanted to suck my money.

Flight for round trip from SIN to DPS(Denpasar Airport) cost $296 for us both. So it would be $148 each.

Accommodation

I love Airbnb! Found an accommodation for $185 for 3d2n. BUT I actually found a cheaper option in Expedia! $157.74 for 2 nights with breakfast. I REGRET the breakfast option. Though I love that it took only a few steps for us to reach the lobby/bar of the hotel and watching the staff prepare breakfast for us.

THIS IS THE VIEW from our bed.

I could literally step outside and one more step would land me right into the pool. Not that it's dangerous as there's still space for you to tread on. HAHA just want to convey

how convenient it is.

Some of the indonesian snacks we had.

Sufian and his friend, Sam

2 weeks ago, Sufian got me to go meet him at Bedok to skate with his friend. Long awaited Longboarding lesson #2 is finally here!

Went to Kembangan to take bus and his friend was also waiting there. I didn't recognise him at first, but once I did, I immediately turned my head away and ferociously typed away on my phone, TELLING SUF OMFG WHAT A COINCIDENCE! Near definite possibility that we would get up the same bus so when the bus came I squeezed and cut through so that I would be buried in the crowd. :( normally I'd just wait at the back.

Heh! Suf met us at the bus stop, though his friend didn't know I was behind. Returned Suf's T-shirts to him and waited till he brought his longboard out.

Got more lessons while waiting for his friend to meet him. Tried to see whether I was Regular or Goofy again.

Watch strap suddenly snapped by itself

D'reverie's first gig thereafter

Took leave on Friday 2 weeks ago. It felt so good, sleeping in. Laid in bed and watched Amogood videos on Facebook until I got bored then listened to music on 8tracks.

Ahh, that playlist that made me hear One Ok Rock for the first time. It was the best thing that happened to me.

Had a busy day the day after, my whole mind was on the gig that was to come. Even after the gig, I was still in a daze, reeling in from whatever happened.. wanting to absorb every feeling I felt there into my memory and lock it in forever.

Though I kind of forgot how it felt, I hope D'rev's next will be even more insane.

It' s a break for us! We went to Suf's aunt's house to chillax the whole day. 4 absolutely adorable kids to play with? OH YEAHHHHHH

Their room is a toy heaven, bunk bed has a princess tower thingy & canopy, and the tv blasts cartoons all day long. Why didn't I stay here when I was young...

Watched The Taking of Deborah Logan with Aaron and Sufian! It is so much like The Last Exorcism .. I really wonder if there will be any real horror movies in the future.

Long are the days where I'm kept up all night worrying about zombies barging in the house, my sisters beside me being replaced with something scary or some shadowy figure materializing at my bedside and dragging me away. Hehehe

WEE! So after the movie(11+pm) my stomach was raging.. We didn't have dinner. I wondered why but I didn't ask Sufian if we are eating at 8pm when we were about to start the movie :X

WHOOPS! Missed the last bus so I called Papa up to see if he could fetch me home :D my papa is like the Singapore road encyclopaedia, I only had to tell him Bedok and the block number and he said he'd be there in 30 minutes.

On the way back home, Papa said he's planning to bring me out for lunch on Tuesday, cause the partner who he shares his taxi with is going on a vacation, so he'll be able to use the car in daytime.

OH YEAH AND SO WE DID! Tuesday came, lunch time was just nearing, and I was still thinking if whatever Papa said was true(there wasn't mention of it afterwards) when he called me! I told boss and she was okay with it~ Happily waited until papa reached and ooh! My ahma and aunt were in the car too~

Went to some hawker where we had Bak Kut Teh, pig trotters and pig stomach :P

Had an emotional moment. A G A I N.

When I first entered the cab, papa asked if my boss had eaten, and if she would like to join us or we could buy some food back for her. WOWWWW I didn't even think of that ._. papa is so thoughtful.. something I must learn. My family stopped eating when they were done and I ate at my slow speed as usual, yet when I was full they could still help to finish up the food. Am I thinking too much or are they actually letting me eat?

Ahma accidentally opened the car door with too much force and it dented the neighbouring car's side. Oops. The guy was already eyeing us while we were parking! Now he started demanding for compensation of some sort :( papa gave him $50 to pacify him. I'm shocked cause I thought Papa would get angry but he just brushed it off and walked on. (all such admirable traits)

#OVERTHINKINGUPLEVEL

Aunt was really nice she asked if I wanted to drink anything, and when I said no she said to buy a drink back for boss. Are people really more thoughtful when they are grown up? But nice gestures are really a bit rare, yet important cause they make people feel special.

Bought coffee for boss. It was dripping at the sides so I held it precariously but observant Aunt handed me a tissue. WOW T_T I didn't even need to ask. I was filled with admiration for my family on the way back home in the cab, holding the styrofoam cup gingerly in my hands and appreciating life ^^

Great day 

The next day Papa took me out for lunch again cause he didn't have time to find Sis(in Novena)

We went to another hawker in Ang Mo Kio. What, I didn't know there were so many hawkers in Singapore, much less AMK! Mum kept talking about how ahgong used to bring her and her siblings to this hawker when she was a kid. That must've been AGES man.

We had duck rice and I ate duck tongue :P

But alas, dad recalled that he didn't bring his cash card out and proceeded to find a 7-11 nearby where he could purchase one. Uh-uh, no hope. We went to the gantry anyway, and dad went out to ask the driver behind us if they could kindly lend us their card and he'd pay them back in cash

The parking fee was probably only around $1 or less? but dad gave them $2. Ahhh, I think it's nice Papa willingly gave more cause he knows it's his fault for forgetting his cash card.

T_T I don't know what's with me but I like to see the good in people. HAHAHA

Had my last Basic lesson. These are my classmates!

Though I only had classes with them for a few times, but those few times they were really funny and endearing! I liked them immediately and wanted to go for the same class every week. Before I was just drifting here and there, going for classes that were convenient for me. But I guess I finally met people that made me want to stay.

I took the train home with Gordon and he asked him about his life story. Shared things about my band with him as well.

Mum cooked when my stomach was hurting from not eating again~ YAYYY

First live

First.

I know I'm someone that enjoys the feeling. People singing along, looking at them and connecting with them, smiling..

Though sometimes I wonder, "Am I really cut out for this?", I think of all the times I've imagined singing to a sea of people... and I know I have to go on.