D'reverie's first gig thereafter

Took leave on Friday 2 weeks ago. It felt so good, sleeping in. Laid in bed and watched Amogood videos on Facebook until I got bored then listened to music on 8tracks.

Ahh, that playlist that made me hear One Ok Rock for the first time. It was the best thing that happened to me.

Had a busy day the day after, my whole mind was on the gig that was to come. Even after the gig, I was still in a daze, reeling in from whatever happened.. wanting to absorb every feeling I felt there into my memory and lock it in forever.

Though I kind of forgot how it felt, I hope D'rev's next will be even more insane.

It' s a break for us! We went to Suf's aunt's house to chillax the whole day. 4 absolutely adorable kids to play with? OH YEAHHHHHH

Their room is a toy heaven, bunk bed has a princess tower thingy & canopy, and the tv blasts cartoons all day long. Why didn't I stay here when I was young...

Watched The Taking of Deborah Logan with Aaron and Sufian! It is so much like The Last Exorcism .. I really wonder if there will be any real horror movies in the future.

Long are the days where I'm kept up all night worrying about zombies barging in the house, my sisters beside me being replaced with something scary or some shadowy figure materializing at my bedside and dragging me away. Hehehe

WEE! So after the movie(11+pm) my stomach was raging.. We didn't have dinner. I wondered why but I didn't ask Sufian if we are eating at 8pm when we were about to start the movie :X

WHOOPS! Missed the last bus so I called Papa up to see if he could fetch me home :D my papa is like the Singapore road encyclopaedia, I only had to tell him Bedok and the block number and he said he'd be there in 30 minutes.

On the way back home, Papa said he's planning to bring me out for lunch on Tuesday, cause the partner who he shares his taxi with is going on a vacation, so he'll be able to use the car in daytime.

OH YEAH AND SO WE DID! Tuesday came, lunch time was just nearing, and I was still thinking if whatever Papa said was true(there wasn't mention of it afterwards) when he called me! I told boss and she was okay with it~ Happily waited until papa reached and ooh! My ahma and aunt were in the car too~

Went to some hawker where we had Bak Kut Teh, pig trotters and pig stomach :P

Had an emotional moment. A G A I N.

When I first entered the cab, papa asked if my boss had eaten, and if she would like to join us or we could buy some food back for her. WOWWWW I didn't even think of that ._. papa is so thoughtful.. something I must learn. My family stopped eating when they were done and I ate at my slow speed as usual, yet when I was full they could still help to finish up the food. Am I thinking too much or are they actually letting me eat?

Ahma accidentally opened the car door with too much force and it dented the neighbouring car's side. Oops. The guy was already eyeing us while we were parking! Now he started demanding for compensation of some sort :( papa gave him $50 to pacify him. I'm shocked cause I thought Papa would get angry but he just brushed it off and walked on. (all such admirable traits)

#OVERTHINKINGUPLEVEL

Aunt was really nice she asked if I wanted to drink anything, and when I said no she said to buy a drink back for boss. Are people really more thoughtful when they are grown up? But nice gestures are really a bit rare, yet important cause they make people feel special.

Bought coffee for boss. It was dripping at the sides so I held it precariously but observant Aunt handed me a tissue. WOW T_T I didn't even need to ask. I was filled with admiration for my family on the way back home in the cab, holding the styrofoam cup gingerly in my hands and appreciating life ^^

Great day 

The next day Papa took me out for lunch again cause he didn't have time to find Sis(in Novena)

We went to another hawker in Ang Mo Kio. What, I didn't know there were so many hawkers in Singapore, much less AMK! Mum kept talking about how ahgong used to bring her and her siblings to this hawker when she was a kid. That must've been AGES man.

We had duck rice and I ate duck tongue :P

But alas, dad recalled that he didn't bring his cash card out and proceeded to find a 7-11 nearby where he could purchase one. Uh-uh, no hope. We went to the gantry anyway, and dad went out to ask the driver behind us if they could kindly lend us their card and he'd pay them back in cash

The parking fee was probably only around $1 or less? but dad gave them $2. Ahhh, I think it's nice Papa willingly gave more cause he knows it's his fault for forgetting his cash card.

T_T I don't know what's with me but I like to see the good in people. HAHAHA

Had my last Basic lesson. These are my classmates!

Though I only had classes with them for a few times, but those few times they were really funny and endearing! I liked them immediately and wanted to go for the same class every week. Before I was just drifting here and there, going for classes that were convenient for me. But I guess I finally met people that made me want to stay.

I took the train home with Gordon and he asked him about his life story. Shared things about my band with him as well.

Mum cooked when my stomach was hurting from not eating again~ YAYYY

First live

First.

I know I'm someone that enjoys the feeling. People singing along, looking at them and connecting with them, smiling..

Though sometimes I wonder, "Am I really cut out for this?", I think of all the times I've imagined singing to a sea of people... and I know I have to go on.

Stalker or curious by nature

I've not had the motivation to blog since god knows when. I was on twitter this afternoon and the "Who to follow" window suggested a friend's ex and I was curious since she seemed to be special to him. And I always love snooping around to know more about how someone could mean so much to another.

So I went to her blog and have been reading it at work and even now on my com at home.

She seems like an interesting person! She reads, reads manga, watches anime, plays games, loves music, knows Japanese and is studying what I'm quite interested in. I wish we could be friends, AHHHHH

But her posts left me stuck in deep thoughts..

It reminded me of something, that I've never had the time to ponder over, since my life is superfucking busy now. What the feeling of having a boyfriend was like.

I don't know how to describe it, I'd always thought it was weird how people's relationship status could be complicated. Life is complicated enough, why let the other things in life be difficult.

I miss going on dates. Movies, touristy places(Sentosa, SEA Aquarium, ECP cycling etc), eating good food(and not having to pay), going to town, eating Cold Stone and cafe hopping. Are they the fun things to do while being in a relationship?

Having a hand to hold, just to feel safe while walking together or just lazing about. Spending the whole day nua-ing watching movies and shit. I...... miss that but sometimes when I'm harsh on myself I feel that I've wasted my few years doing all that instead of working on my passion and interests.

I AM WEIRD. But I know that I can't lie to myself. I know my friends are all "meh, she's gonna go back to him again, like she always does". Sometimes I want to, but I know that I'm not sold on that idea anymore. I can't bring myself to type "muack" to him ._. maybe I did but I don't want to not mean it.

I mean it's not like I don't love him but he just feels like a close kin. Someone I care about, but I don't really mind when we don't keep in touch or meet up. I have been used to him not being in my life. We can go without messaging each other for like days. Like thoughts of talking to him doesn't even creep into my mind.

So it's weird. But still, it sucked badly when he cried during our Japan trip. I just wanted to cradle his head in my arms and make it all better for him. I cried myself cause I can't stand people crying. But then I cried even more cause I know I care for him, but I can't be with him anymore. I know it sounds silly but come on. We can't stand each other, can we?

I can love someone but not want to be with him, amirite? WHY ARE THERE FRIENDS THAT DON'T GET THAT?! You can based it on your own experience but do not call me out on it when you don't really know what I'm feeling.

Alright. I have been dragging for long enough. 2:24 AM. Work tomorrow. Bye.

Welcome 2015

It's 2015, the year I turn 21.

So I set some goals during January last year. 

I wanted to set some again but procrastination took over me. But I think it's better to set actions than goals. If not the goals become dreams that can never turn into reality.

Right now, my most important goal is to continually improve on my singing.

I'm so happy that I found my bandmates, and together we've formed D'Reverie.

Basically every week I just look forward to our jamming session on Sundays. And together, I hope that our playing becomes tighter, we improve together, and become good enough in the next few years to actually be among the best in Singapore.

Since our goal is to eventually move to Japan and start out there.

It's been 3 months since we officially formed, but I feel an improvement in myself and I seriously hope that I don't get complacent and slack again just cause I know I'm improving. It's not enough uh, I have to push myself so that I'm improving at my fastest possible rate.

Life is good when you feel that you're getting closer to your goal, and you have a crew chasing that goal together with you. Everyone helps and motivates each other. I can't ask for better.

Another goal is saving money. I hope to save at least .. k this year ok!!!!

There isn't really much hope for my career prospects.

I hope that my next job can be something that is creative. I've been looking into the Creative Arts area, though my skills are seriously lacking.

I miss this life.