A new start

The first half of the first month of 2014 has passed, and here I am, still stuck in this never ending spiral of unproductivity.

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling like shit in school, taking little walks during classes just to keep myself alive. I want to change and strive better. So what to do other than to create resolutions nobody ever follows? Maybe some, but not most of us.

So here it goes.

• Keep fit. Start with small steps. Try and follow when guy friends go gym. Or do cardio at home. And not be lazy to even pull the mat out and lay it out on the floor.
• Stop wasting time. Cut down time spent on social media. Less scrolling of Twiiter/Instagram.
• Cherish the people around me more. Shall plan more family outings. First one: steamboat for CNY!!
• Lifelong goal: find my passion. What I love to do. Don't be afraid of failing. Try and try again. I'm made for greater things, not lazing around at home on the computer.
• Clean face. Religiously use DRx at any cost. A nice clean canvas and brighter face over any amount of money.
• Improve myself. Taking singing classes right now and ya, that's the direction I want to go. I have dreamed of being a performer in a bar, and it sure sounds amazing.
• Travel more. Travel, and open myself up. Talk to strangers, jia min. There's nothing to be afraid of, unless maybe the fear of looking like a fool.
• Get a job. I don't know if I want a degree. Now everyone just says DEGREE IS BETTER, DEGREE CAN GET HIGHER PAY
• Buy experiences, not things(materialistic stuff). BUTTTTT I really don't know how to get a good quality bag that is durable. I'm gonna see if a branded bag is really value for money ok. I've bought a $36 bag which is expensive by my standard and it peeled after a year? Yeah, bad.
• Speak clearly. I hope it doesn't put a strain between me and my friends. I need to be assertive.

But the problem is does it matter what I want? A higher pay is least of my problems right now. I just want to find a job I love. That's my priority. If I have any more ideas later on in life, then I'll go and do it. Maybe after working for 1 or 2 years I realize that a degree is indeed important. By then let me decide what I want for myself okay? DOES WHAT I WANT MATTER? I pose this question to the people out there. Is being happy not important? I will try and try again. I believe in the existence of a job I will love.